I’m sixteen and have recently developed an eating disorder that revolves around my mother.
My mother never listens to anything; she is so blind. She can look and look and look at me, but never really SEE me. I guess she’s the type of person who can’t see the forest for the trees. She can ask me for my opinion, but she doesn’t listen to it, and nothing I ever say even begins to cross her mind. I guess the most tragic part is that she can’t even see how blind she is herself; nothing fazes her.
I guess I’ve rationalized that the only way to grab her attention is by developing a full-fledged eating disorder. It’s tragic, sure, but it’s all I have left. I’ve already lost five pounds within the past two weeks. I’m tired of being silent. As a kid, I would always remain silent because I was afraid I would upset other people
Well I’m tired of being so f****** mute all the time. I will be noticed.
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Please don’t. It’s not worth it. Damaging yourself like that is not the answer. I promise, you will regret it. Besides it will not get you the sort of attention you want from your mother. You want her to see you for yourself, not for a disease.
I know that i won’t be able to help your eating disorder but please don’t do it. I know how you feel, you feel hurt, ignored, broken, invisable. That is also how I feel, I hate it and I’m sure you hate it to. We all hate it when we feel this way. I to is always being ignored when I’m talking to my mom or when I’m try to tell her something important, or when she is asking for my opinion but totally ignores it. the older generation just doesn’t understand us as teenagers. All they do is compare others to us. Its so fudgin tiring, and annoying. It’s like they are blind they can’t see past the fake smiles and when they ask us want we want we say something different but what we really want is they to notice us to help us. But it never works. I was always i slient and sky kid to when i was young. I know how it feels but don’t worry I’m here.