I’m not a very social person; I don’t go out and meet people. I’m always in online relationships. I guess there really are just some people who choose to be in online relationships but don’t hold it to the same regard as I would. With that said, just because we met and continue to communicate online, doesn’t mean I value it any less than those formed offline.
I plan to nurture this, to let it grow. I plan to meet you. In person. To hold you. To let you hold me. To meet your family. To let you meet mine. I don’t know.. I probably sound crazy. But what can I do? I’m a person who can’t handle casual relationships. I’m insecure being with someone who doesn’t wear their heart on their sleeve.
People always tell me that I’m always over analyzing things. But in this case, is it really so different? Wouldn’t you feel bad if you felt like you were being kept a secret? The problem with online relationships is that you only know what the other person or their friends tell you about them.
I hate how you haven’t introduced me to even a single friend of yours. I don’t want to push the subject just yet because I feel long distance relationships might be a more sensitive topic to share between males than for us females, but it just s**** to be kept on the down low. What if you have a local girlfriend or something?
I’d like to believe that you wouldn’t be putting in the time to be with me if the case really is that you have a significant other where you are, but the paranoia just won’t let up. I don’t want to be a person of convenience that you can just run to when you’re bored. So I guess I’ll have to lower my pride and talk to you about it, otherwise I guess I’m going.
