I’m engaged to the woman I’ve

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I’m engaged to the woman I’ve been with for the last five years. We have an open relationship that’s always been rocky – she hates it when I’m with other women, and vice versa, but neither of us is monogamous and the pain of being cheated on is too much to bear. A couple nights ago I met up with a much younger woman. I lied about everything – my relationship status, what I’m doing with my life, my living situation – I brought her back to my apartment (fiancee is out of town). We fucked for hours – she’s into being dominated, something I love to explore but my fiancee is just not into. It was the single best s***** experience of my life – head and shoulders above the genuinely fantastic s** I have with my fiancee. The other woman and I were two animals. I had to air the bedroom out the next day and wash the sheets and duvet twice.

When I told my fiancee about this woman, I severely downplayed the actual events. What was a five-condom, multi-hour, multi-orgasmic screaming gushathon with a genuine pain s*** who had the body of my dreams and involved, amongst other accoutrements – a dozen clothespins, twelve feet of nylon climbing rope, a bottle of KY, and an entire tea candle – became an unenthusiastic short lived make-out with a plain woman of indeterminate age.

I haven’t heard much from the other woman since our night together – I think her instinct is telling her I’m bad news, and of course she’s correct. I have not, and will not, tell my fiancee the truth – my catharsis would be her pain. But I am literally experiencing withdrawal symptoms at the overwhelming power of my lust for the other woman. I’m jittery, nervous. No amount of self-medication with cigarettes, pot, food, booze, or jacking off is doing anything to take the edge off how much I want her.

It is right that I suffer. All I can do is sweat it out. It’s going to be a long night.

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  • Maybe having an open relationship causes problems because it’s goddamned disgusting and wrong. Just a thought.

    Anonymous March 21, 2014 7:10 pm Reply

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