I thought he was gonna try to hold my hand today and had an instant reaction of no. We can makeout and have s** behind closed doors but you do not hold my hand or cuddle with me. He tried to kiss me in public and I told him no. He clearly wants more then I do. I wish he didn’t. I wish he didn’t want me at all. I wish he could find a nice girl to be with. I like him and maybe I could want to be with him if we weren’t secret for a reason.
