I never thought it was possible

I never thought it was possible to only have one dollar in my bank account. I guess I’d just never thought about it. I was so used to my parents money, that it didn’t come to mind.

Now I’m 18 and living on my own, and it’s just about the hardest thing ever. I eat at my job, in order to save money, so on my days off, I don’t have much food at home. It’s hard not to cry, since everything is overwhelming me. I have to find another apartment and a housemate (most likely someone I don’t know) within a little less than a month, my manager is the biggest a****** to me at work, and always points me out to tell me every single thing I’m doing wrong (but for some reason doesn’t acknowledge when another co-worker also does something wrong. In all honesty, I think he hates me because I have better hair than he does), and now I have one dollar left in my bank account. I refuse to ask my parents for money, and I never will. It’s just hard. :/

I was originally going to go to a university, but they’d told me last minute that they’d retracted my admission due to one D during my first semester of my last year of high school, in math class. They’d notified me three weeks before school started, when they’d had my transcripts for months beforehand. So after two people and two dogs I cared about all died in one month, my mother kicked me out for talking back to her (not even yelling nor raising my voice, I’ll note), and I was left working at my father’s grey cement company whilst enrolling in the community college where all of my classes on the wait-list, I left in the middle of the night and left a note. Now I work at a food restaurant and live in a one-bedroom apartment with two guy friends of mine, and I’ve never been so broke in my entire life. I’ve also never been so on my own. :'( I have too much pride to go and get financial help, but if it keeps going on like this, I might not have a choice until I can find a second job. Fantastic.

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