I may have had a different way going about things but it wasn’t wrong. You all tried to make me feel that way but I wasn’t wrong. You harped on me to do things your way because when it comes down to it, your lives are based on fear. If I wasn’t doing it your way, you thought it okay to be verbally and emotionally abusive instead of just shutting up and trusting me or anything else. Your way was the best way. Your way was the ONLY way. And yet, here I am, at 39, about to buy my first home. A $400,000 home. On the beach. Just the way I always envisioned. And that’s the point. No matter what, I kept the vision of my success in my head. No, I didn’t attend college. No, I didn’t know how or when any of what I wanted and talked about would happen. I didn’t have any idea about anything. Nonetheless, I just kept the vision of my success in my head. No matter what. I kept it there like it was true, like it already happened. I had faith. And you know what? Looks like my life worked out for me. Everything I have ever wanted has come to me.
You, Mr. Man, who was so controlling about YOUR things. Your cruddy house. I couldn’t touch anything because it was YOUR house. All you talked about was everything that was YOURS. We spent five years together. But everything was YOURS. I didn’t “have a pot to piss in”. I didn’t “make enough money”. You complained ALL THE TIME about EVERYTHING. I can’t help but laugh now. I just realized my CAR cost more than your precious house! LOL
I know. You “wish you were here with me”. And you had a chance to be. Too bad you decided being hurtful and nasty was more important than being kind. It never occurred to you that things can change and that, at the tip of the hat, the person you are crushing underfoot can rise to victory. Then what? The best thing is, all I have to do to get back at you is go about living my life. Happily. And I am!
This isn’t about gloating. This is a feeling of vindication. I KNEW in my heart I was on the right track. I wanted you all to be patient but you couldn’t. It had to be YOUR way. And because I wouldn’t bend, you tried to break me. That hurt. Because you were supposed to be people that cared for me. Just because it’s different, doesn’t make it wrong. Just because you don’t understand, doesn’t mean it’s invalid. I have ALWAYS had a strong vision for my life since DAY ONE. And that you felt I needed to abandon that to make you all feel better is incomprehensible. You called ME selfish???
So here I am. And it feels GOOD. I am so proud of myself! I never let go. I stuck with it. I kept the vision. And now look! I wanted you to love me but that meant giving up what I feel God wanted for me and I wanted what was in my heart more. It’s so funny how you all insisted I do things your way because it was better but not ONE of you was happy at all. NONE. Do you ever think that maybe the reason I was in your lives was for you to follow as an example? But no. You had to scream and beat on me like a bunch of monkeys because you were so afraid. So I left. And now, you’re still where you are and I am so much farther ahead. And that’s because I DIDN’T do it your way.
Whatever you do, KEEP YOUR VISION. College, no college. Job, crappy job or no job. No matter what your age, race, economic level, religion, whatever. KEEP YOUR VISION. IT IS THE *ONLY* THING THAT MATTERS. The Universe doesn’t pay attention to the silly rules we make for ourselves or try to make for anyone else. If you keep the vision of your success in your head at all times, no matter what your physical circumstances or what other people try to convince you of, you will come out WAY ahead, I promise you. KEEP. YOUR. VISION. It is yours. It is for you. It is for no one else. It is yours. KEEP YOUR VISION!!!!!!
