I honestly don’t know what to

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I honestly don’t know what to categorize this as. I am sixteen I am attracted to older men. That isn’t part of my confession though. Just something that I felt was important to let you know before I went on to the confession part. About five years ago when I was 10/11 my mom was dating a younger man who was 25. I actually had a little elementary school crush on him before she even dated him. He was a local wrestler. Anyway she wound up dating him. Nothing wrong with that. Just a bit of a cougar. No crime. Talk about crushing my little heart though, am I right? They split up after a little over a year but always remained close. Over that year I had grown close to him and he was like a father to me. I even referred to him as a dad. Though they have remained close they haven’t remained extremely close. In January, I formed a romantic relationship with a thirty three year old man who had once asked my mom out. She was fine with he and I talking and even with us dating. She knows that I am trustworthy, not slutty, at all, I’ve never even kissed a guy. Anyway, He was great, but he practically became obsessed with me and wanted to get married ASAP. I called it off after talking to him for seven months. A few months ago, my sister and I started talking to my moms ex again who is now thirty. My mom is now dating someone else and really doesn’t care about this guy anymore at all. In the last month my sister has been busy with her fiancé and I have begun spending time with my moms ex one on one. We are practically dating. He admitted to having a dream about me and he feels extremely guilty about it. I am thinking of him as a crush again. And he has basically told me that he thinks of me in a romantic way but has not flat out said it. I haven’t told him that I think of him the way I do because I know it would affect our friendship. At least some. I wish he wouldn’t feel so bad about thinking of me the way he does though. It is natural I get it. He tries to avoid any physical interactions with me. I offered to give him a massage because he has problems with his back due to his past wrestling injuries. He refused to let me give him one unless he wore a shirt. I did walk on his back for him last week though but I didn’t weigh enough to help any. Lol. I wish he would stop worrying so much and just admit to liking me. I like him! I pushed aside my thoughts of him as a father, he needs to push aside his thoughts of me as a daughter. My mom doesn’t mind a bit, if anything she encourages it because she knows he cares about me and the rest of the family. I know it sounds like I should be on Jerry Springer or something but that isn’t what I am trying to sound like. It is just what is really going on in my life right now.

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  • Just tell him how you feel!

    Anonymous December 31, 2013 2:09 am Reply
  • That’s disgusting. I’m 16 too. ewwwww

    Anonymous December 31, 2013 5:55 pm Reply
  • Its not disgusting, its life and its complicated. Yes its hard for some people to stomach a 30 year old dating a 16 year old but no one would bat an eye if you were 21 and he were 35. Maybe you should wait around until you are 18, yes you are young and still figuring out what you want but at least wait until the legal limit to pursue anything and that would ease his guilt lots.

    Anonymous December 31, 2013 8:36 pm Reply

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