I have made so many bad choices in life and been afraid to live. I had so much and I have nothing to show for any opportunity I pissed away. My husband thinks I am an evil b****, my children go between loving me and thinking I am mean, I have no true friends and maybe never have, I often feel it would be better if someone better could take my place. I think y husband thinks so too. I think sometimes I should just walk away and start again. Is 37 too old to start over? Everyone would be better off, I bring so much negativity to everything and judge too harshly on everyone but myself. Everyone had high hopes and some still think I have done good. They don’t know how wrong they are.
