I have done things I would not normally do, I and I have pretended that these things are okay to me. Its no bother that I am lying to everyone around me , the problem is that I am lying to myself. I dont know how I managed to get to this place from where I was. Now I think I might be stuck with some consequences that I will not recover from. And if indeed I am stuck with these consequences I might be forced to do something even worse to an innocent life.
