I had a very close friend for a few years, we met when I was 15, he was 23 at the time, he was more or less like an older brother, giving me books to read, keeping an eye on me, he traveled and by the time he was back I was nearing 18, on my 18th birthday he took me and I went to drink for the first time in my whole life, after that in a few weeks I was supposed to travel and I had a fight with the woman in charge and did not go, one of the other team members did not go as well, we had a ‘people who didnt travel’ hang out at my roof, I ended up having my first kiss with a guy I hardly knew and hardly liked and never talked to ever again after that. after that in a few weeks I had a collage interview in another city, I was reluctant to go cause I was so upset about not getting to travel before, so going unprepared for an interview in another country, I go to there, meet some friends get far too drunk, and eat alot of chocolate, end up making out with a guy I just met. ofcourse the 23 year old friend who by then was 26 was the first to know about these things, after getting home, one month and I start dating this friend, keep in mind that he is 8 years older than i am, he takes things ‘with my body’ far too much, he introduces to many new things and i tell you i come from a seriously preserved socitey where people get killed for such stuff. anyhow a new two doors opened to me in a short period of 2 months, my body and drinking. after dating him for a month, I go on an exchange and travel for a month and a half, there i meet someone else and guess what I cheat on the guy I dated back home, I come home I do not tell him, he does not show any emotions towards me, and after that in 4 months i travel again and cheat again, when i come back home, this time I come back to find a guy in love with me and willing to change the world for me, and after digging deep he finds out what I have done and we break up, I have been depressive for the past three months, trying to make him understand how sorry and childish and stupid I am. I tried everything, and now I do not know what is next.
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This is an interesting recap of what is an entire chapter of your life I suppose. I think you will perhaps take some time to see what the actual results of this time are. How will you react to this is the question? Remember you are young and we all have to go through some mistakes to find out who we really are, what we really want. You have to experience these feelings sooner or later. It’s ok. I think you’ll recover from it and be just fine.