I don’t really know how to start this, but I feel like my s***** preferences are messed up. I like some really creepy s*** and I have no idea if it stems from something, or if I’m just a little different. I’m a young female and I’m into really dirty, demeaning ideas. I’ve always found myself attracted to the weirdest people. I can’t count how many crushes I’ve had on the strangest mother f****** people (fictional or non-fictional). I’m talking creepy/scary dudes. I don’t have very much s***** experience, but the thought of s***** situations being forced drives me crazy. That’s really the only kind of thing that turns me on. I just love the idea of someone choking me as a way to assert power. Not even a particularly attractive guy either, like some dirty, nasty, scummy guy or some s*** (I’m a sucker for villains and always have been). Just straight up scummy, brutal forced s**. The strangest thing is that i find myself attracted to psychopaths and actual crazy people. It makes me feel kinda dirty, but I can’t help it it’s so twisted! It’s hard trying to put so many thoguhts into text so it’s probably all a rant-y mess, but i hope you got the feel of what I was trying to say. I’ve never told anyone about it and I really wanted to get that off my chest!
All Comments
This is a perfectly normal fetish. It normally stems from low-self esteem and feeling that you are below everybody else ( Im not sure if this is correct in your case but it is in many) Dont feel ashamed about what you feel because it is perfectly normal to have these feelings. They can be subdued with therapy if you want to go down that road. We all have strange sexual fantasies I dont care what people say and it is strong and brave of you to admit these feelings but dont feel ashamed you are not alone 🙂 (I have a bachelors in psychology and I am working towards my masters)
Lots of girls have that fantasy.
I feel you girl. Confusion is probably the best way to confess my sexual identity.