I don’t know if there is something wrong with me. I can act totally normal around my friends and family, and I do always try to be cheerful and upbeat, so I’m not sure if they would even believe me if I told them any of this. It’s just that, I really feel like there isn’t much of a reason for me to keep trying to get on with life. I seem to be more of a drain on people than I am a help to them, yet I continue to interact as best I can. I don’t want to kill myself, but I wonder if it would be the right thing to do. Is this a normal feeling? I’m not really sure if I would be able to do anything about it even if it wasn’t, because I don’t want to talk to anyone about it. I would really rather not be an annoyance. Moreover, perhaps this is something that will go away with time. I have wondered if I’m depressed, but since no one else has noticed anything, it sort of seems like it’s all in my head.
