.. Hmmm, I am still a little

.. Hmmm, I am still a little self conscious about how much I leak. I didn’t have this concern at first and I didn’t know it would really exist, but when the first boyfriend with whom I was intimate with, asked me a question while we were getting freaky one day it changed my outlook on this. “Why are you SO wet?” he asked. Well, because I wanna do it, and uhm because you’re here and were doing this? I mean shouldn’t I be wet? He made it seem like I was excessively wet and that made him turned off? I remember him saying “It’s okay, SOME people like that kind of stuff, like black guys!” O_O”” What the heck? What does wetness and race and lkajsdflkjhaklsdjfh!!!
I remember feeling so embarrassed at being wet at that point. How was I too wet? That’s possible?? Was I doing something wrong? Should I not be as freaky?
Because when I get wet I literally like drip down my legs to the floor. But I thought this sort of thing was normal. I always thought, the more goopy stuff your mucus membranes produce, the healthier you are.
Now a days when I have s**, and I get all gooey, sometimes I get embarrassed at how wet I am and I feel like I have to apologize to my partner for being so wet. I think he likes it, but now I just feel so..I don’t know the word, nasty to other people. I’m afraid he would just say that he likes it to make me feel better for being so wet.
I just hope that wet means healthy, and I’m happy to be healthy. And i’d imagine that being too wet is better than being too dry. So i’ll just say that this is a good thing… and try to not worry about it. Right? <:s
Gosh how awkward..

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