Fucked up confession of the year. .

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Fucked up confession of the year. . Let me start by saying that i would never, ever do this.
since i was young (maybe 13) ive had an almost daily fantasy of finding a girl aged around 9 and strangling her to death while r***** her, then laying her on the bed in a beautiful dress.
part of me truly believes that this could be considered artistic, the other part believes i am sensationally fucked up.

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  • No, it’s not artistic and never will be considered artistic. That’s a twisted and extremely disturbing fantasy. I think you need help.

    Anonymous September 13, 2014 5:31 pm Reply
  • Sometimes people have really weird, really scary thoughts. Thoughts that they themselves know they would never do, and they know it’s horrible and messed up and they usually hate it. While I don’t want to make you scared or make you feel worse by yelling at you or calling you bad things, I would agree that it’s probably best to talk with a psychological professional about this. Because these kinds of things aren’t normal for a person to want to do, and you seem to be aware of that, which is good.

    As far as I know (and while I’m not a professional in psychology myself, I’ve always been interested in the field and have been studying it on and off on my own for nine years), there are two things that are most likely to cause such thoughts/fantasies.

    The first is something that may have happened to you that caused some of your thoughts to twist a bit and start thinking of and desiring things that are dangerous and inappropriate (this doesn’t mean your nothing but a horrible person, and I promise I’m not trying to tell you you’re monster or anything, but it is something that raises concern for your sake at the least). This event can be an actual physical, “in world” thing that took place in your past, or it could’ve been something that slowly developed in the mind over time as small negative things conditioned part of you to think this way.

    The second one (and hopefully not the correct one in your case) is that some people physically develop in a way so that their brains don’t necessarily comprehend the full thoughts and feelings of other, and sometimes it doesn’t comprehend or care about consequences either (but you seem to, so that’s very good). If this were the case, it wouldn’t be your fault- but it could worsen over time if this is the case, and so in order to prevent this situation from going unnoticed and possibly ending with your fantasy being played out by you, I would recommend that you seek out a professional right away, or at least as soon as you can.

    Again, I’m not trying to tell you that you’re path is obviously the path of a budding psychopath. But there is a problem, you’re aware of it, and right now (and hopefully forever) you know it’s wrong and don’t actually want to make your fantasy a reality. But seeing a therapist would help you uncover any possible pain/confusion/etc. in your life, or help you find out if there’s something going on with you that’s not in your control yet, so you can get it under control now while it’s easy to do so.

    I have faith that you’re truly a good person and will make the right decisions in life so that you and those around you can lead the healthiest, happiest lives you can have. You can take my advice if you’d like, or you can leave it. The choice is up to you, but I do think it’d help you at least feel better emotionally. There’s a difference between confessing something like that anonymously on the internet, and confessing it to someone who can help you do something about changing it.

    Anyway, I ramble, I know. *hugs* Whether you choose to look into psychology or not, I believe you’ll do the best you can do to be a good person.

    Anonymous September 13, 2014 6:37 pm Reply

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