have you ever oppened this site like 4 times a day out of boredom and saw there was nothing new on it, and fell obliged to confess something, though you really have NOTHING to say??? Can’t help myself thinking so, when I see, 1st of all, some useless “confessions”, and 2nd of all, when I see myself doing the exat thing im describing. Akh, i feel so bored and so high :/
ok, forget about this stupid introduction. My real confession is:
Even though I promise myself EVRY F****** TIME that im not gonna smoke up anymore, I seem to just be not able to do it. I feel weak. I ged mad everyday at my parents cause whatever I do they’re disappointed in me. And I always fear it’s so unfair, and I really deserv their pride. But f*** it. Look at me now. Red eyes, dark rings under them, a stupid smile. I’m getting skinnier everyday (even though I’m eating like a pig), and the spark that used to live in my eyes, that spark about which everybody talks to me since I’m 8 years old maybe, well that spark is not here anymore. I know I shouldnt be living the life I’m living right now. I Know I’m worth much more. I mean, that’s what everybody keeps saying.
But, here I am today. When I thought I finally graped the answers, I found myself as lost as 5 years ago. I feel like I really lost hope this time. We’re living in a society, in a corrupted society, who keeps on f****** everything up.
You know the quote “If you can’t beat them, join them?” Well that’s what I did. I joined the rank of these failures, of these blind wannabe “humans” (as in living creatures with a conscience, with an abiliti to evolve. hmm hmmm).
I’m officially a failure. And I’m raising my (i don’t know which number to say honestly) of the night to that. Cheers everybody. Hopefully I’ll be dead by next year. Hopelly I’m not gonna see another summer worst than this one. It keeps getting suckier and succkier. Well if I’m gone, it can’t be worse. I mean. It would stop this whole nonesense.
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loool i was just reading what I just wrote :p Sorry for the spelling and grammar mistakes. :p My bad. For my defence, I’m not really sober right now so..
Thery Alam : well i passed about 5 mins reading this post, sounds like some good poetry to me. Too bad i know it ain’t no fiction. So you have to know that you are dealing with a person who had the same shit as yours, and who has great values and beauty just like the ones you have. to be honest i never tried smoking and i thank god for it.
Am talking to you right now, and my life is in mess. I messed my own life up! can you imagine that ? and i still cry every night over the damage i made.
But i never lost hope, or faith in myself, cz no matter how dark the rings around my eyes will get, and how skinny my body will be, i will always be beautiful cz i believe it and i saw the beauty in me. Now everyone around sees it like me! and am HAPPY.
you can say ” wtf is she talking about? she knows nothing about me! and she didn’t have the life i did!” but trust me, i lived… long enough to feel pain. experience loneliness and failure
Stand on your feet. Take control of your own life! Trust me it works.. believe in yourself is the only way
You Can search for me, my name is real.. we can discuss. or you can just delete this comment and turn your back .
Comme c’est beau, l’anonyma.
– TTSP
Thery Alam : I’m starting to actually appreciate you.
– L.K.
Wihiiiiiwww!
– TTSP
get some friends to smoke with … wont get you emo/paranoid like this :)))
and chill …your not in romania … the “We’re living in a society, in a corrupted society, who keeps on fucking everything up.” ..is child shit here
life sux like hell here … go get a job ..you have jobs there? .we dont have here .. we dont even have money … ppl are dieing of starvation here … ppl live with 150 euro a month ..and we have the biggest prices in EU
YA !!! youre shit exported in romania ..is more expensive here than in alllll EUROPE
remember 150E/month
WE DONT HAVE DRUGS!!!!!!!!! we have Spice shit here … faKe weed .. poison ..addicting shit ..all kids from 12 to 30 smoke that shit ..every day ..25 times a day
that shit is mad man …this hole …this is the BLACK HOLE IN EU …
AND!!!!!!!! stop your QQ boy ..enjoy that weed .. i pay good money for that red eye shit emo/paranoid weed … i smoke POISON MAN !!!! POISON EVERYDAY … addicting shit ..everybody smokes poison here
chill .. lifes good .. beautiful, watch a movie… fuck a bitch 🙂
and leaving that shit … look at this http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:EU_belief_in_god.png
… that black hole is romania ..you know ? …most dont know … look … whats that ? belive in what ? … what god? ..wtf!
come ..trade with me places ..i want to QQ with redd eyes
Cause you think life here is easy right? You have no idea what you’re talking about so shut the fuck up
and please could you just stop already with your “go fuck a bitch” comments? you OBVIOUSLY know nothning about sex, nor love. So avoid the useless comments which have no meaning
suck me
you dont have to be an expert in sex/love to talk about it
and if “bitch” hurts your feeling … thats fucked up ..r u a bitch?
and btw love is your hormones in you head idiot ..its not what you see in hollywood teen movies ..”i feel butterfly in my stomach ” … stop eating shit
my comment was .. “it could be worse” cheer up
and i speak how ever the fuck i want … you inoculated dumb fuck
yoo fukn romanian dude, stop syn bullshit bout romania it rlly shws uve lived thr..well i bet u live in a village full of zygans..go fuk urself bfr u tlk bout romania..its the best fukn country ,full of alcohol and best grls to fuk oh ya n everythin is cheap there so wtf more do yu wnt huh? i bet ur a fag