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12/17

how do i explain today? it was amazing. i could say that, you see, but even amazing wouldn’t sum up how good it felt to feel you close to me. i couldn’t help but smile when you squeezed me lightly between your legs where i sat, or even playfully hit me. you touched my neck with your cold hands, but even that chill couldn’t stop the fire i felt inside. i mean, i just know you are something special to me. you are the first girl i have ever really “officially” liked at school and you make me smile. i wore my favorite red flannel today, and you some how managed to convince me to let you wear it while you poked my neck and we did flirty gestures. i even let you see it for lunch, we texted the whole time. you sat away from me, but looking back i could see you, and it made me extremely happy to see that whenever i texted you, even if you were talking to the people you call best friends, that you’d take time to bow your head and text me back. i always wonder if you felt me staring at the back of your head, or even knew that i was smiling when i did so. anyway, i sort of walked you to your class and that’s when you gave me back my flannel. i felt like i shouldn’t have taken it from you, but you had a huge smile on your face. when i left you to go to my own class, i realized the flannel smelled like you. my friends thought it was weird that i was sitting there smelling it and smiling, but i didn’t. it was just an amazing memory. when i sniffed it, i could instantly picture your face and your smile. it was beautiful. you are beautiful. today was beautiful. today i was happy. we found each other again at the end of the day, i walked with you to your locker, and we talked as we walked down the hallway that is usually extremely long, but for some reason it seemed so short today. you walked with me, and we talked and laughed and joked. you slyly and shyly put your hand on me in an attempt to lock our elbows, but the damned hallway ended, and we needed to walk through the doorway to get outside. outside, i could tell you wanted to do much more. i could tell. you paced back and forth and even mentioned the flannel, you were all over the place, but it was cute. i gave you a side hug because i guess you were not in the moment enough to give me a real one, but that was okay. i still got to feel half of you wrapped on half of me. i’m just scared, you know? scared that you don’t feel the same way i feel. scared that there aren’t autumn leaves falling down on a windy day in your stomach when you think of me. i sure hope so. because each day seems longer, and each hour seems so meaningless the seconds you don’t know how much i want you. with love, yours truly.

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