I am 21 years old, soon to be 22. So far I have never had luck in love untill recently, well I’ve had girls but never found love… So I met this girl and we dated for like 1 and a half month, everything was perfect, then suddently everything started going downhill on her end, I fell in love and admited it. She didn’t and now she feels guilty for not returning the same even tho it’s no biggie. She keeps acting colder and colder to me, and I am trying my hardest to get her attention to me again since I know she likes me… or does she… anyway all I think about everyday is her all the time, and all I do is wait for her messages and a tiny bit of warmth and hope that something will happen between us. I am deeply in love but so depressed to the point where I got drunk and cut myself, I don’t know what to do now. I am talking to friends and everyone about this and everyone seems to say the same ”move on” but I just can’t my head hurts alot, I feel sick I want this to stop. Please God let this stop I just wanna forget and move on. This feeling of nothingness is so horrible, she doesn’t hate me nor is she in love with me I am somewhere inbetween. She doesn’t wanna lose me but won’t be in a relationship or show me any bit of warmth like she used to. I feel so hopeless… like I will never find love in my life. I just want someone to take care of and someone to love and I wanna feel loved. I am not ugly. I am 186cm tall and athletic, not even shy or boring and I am even lucky enough to have great supportive friends. But my thought are so dark and I just feel hopeless just want this to end. I am to p**** to do anything drastical nor would I ever even think of it. This is about it. Kinda feel lighter. Ah… I dream about love every to every other night. About a girl thats funny and cute and loves me… thats all I want now. I need this, need this so bad. I would give anything for real love.
