Lately I’ve been thinking about death non stop. I think about where I would hang myself and how long it would take for someone to find me. I haven’t been out of bed basically for 2 weeks and my so doesn’t seem to care. I’m just someone who cooks and cleans and makes sure our child is taken care of. I feel used and worthless. At night when I do my insulin I use the syringe and dig it into my legs all over until tears well up in my eyes. I hate being human and having to pretend like everything is okay.i can’t wait to just fall asleep And never wake up. Tired of coexisting with my partner….and random but while I’m on here letting s*** out, I f****** hate my friend’s kid. He’s annoying and that’s the main reason we don’t talk anymore. There. I said it.
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dude, don’t give up yet! You’ve made it this far, so don’t give up. It may seem tough now, but trust me, it will be worth it in the end. You’re not only are taking care of your life, you also have two other people who depend on you and love you. Think about how your kid would feel like once your gone. He/She would have to deal with not having a mother to lean on, talk to, and come to you for help. Also, think about your husband. Your husband needs you. You are loved by so many people, though you may no realize it. You make such a big difference in the world.Everyone was put on this earth to fulfill something. You may not realize it now, but I’m sure that you have made a big difference in other people’s lives. You are loved so much! I may not know you, but trust me, you are loved!