its hard to write.. i just feel so down lately.. i do a great job at faking a smile.. but deep down i am dying.. i am lost.. completely lost.. every time i say i forgot about him and i move on then he goes back and does something that attaches me to him.. why he does that.. i dont know.. i wish he could be clear with me.. i am tired of not knowing what it is especially that he means alot to me.. i can’t take it anymore