I don’t know how to word this exactly but.. My biological sister has always been the most beautiful girl in the world to me, both physically and personality wise. Back in 2013, I had a long talk with my therapist about it and concluded that I do have romantic feelings towards my sister. Although we both agreed that I would do nothing, I did confess to her that I like her one night while I was drunk.
From 2013 until now, Valentine’s Day 2018, I still have romantic feelings for her. I’ve had many failed relationships over the years but I have never felt the same way about someone as I do my sister. Unfortunately for me, she doesn’t feel the same way back. She accepts how I feel but we made it very clear the limits of my affection towards her.
Today, she posted about how much she loves her boyfriend and it made me feel jealous, for the first time in a long long time, I felt jealousy. I don’t try to avoid communication with my sister these days but I just don’t talk to her that often anymore. Partially because I am busy with my life and partially because I was hoping that these feelings would subside by now if I didn’t have much interaction with her. I guess I failed.
TL;DR… I am in love with my sister, as a woman. I don’t know what to do about it as it’s been almost 5 years and I feel consistently the same about her. She knows and accepts that I feel this way about her, but we have our hard limits.