Hey anonymous,
Sorry for the late message. I just have to get something off my chest. Sometimes I feel like I’m floating out of my body an look down on me. And I absolutely hate what I see. The way I talk, the way I act, the way I’m living. And the worst thing is that i don’t know what i can do to change it…
You know, everybody just tells me that if I want to change something I just have to start and do it. But for me it’s not that simple. It’s hard. So hard. And I don’t know what to do.
So I act weird around people, laugh like nothings going on with me but cry myself to sleep at night.
I have the feeling that no one can understand what I’m going through and even more, that I have actually no one who really cares. No one who really want to know how I’m doing.
I could just tell everyone. But what would that change?
I can’t handle to get the weird or embarrassed looks on other people’s faces.
I’m afraid that I will break down soon. And if I break down I’m not able to stand up again…
