Where should I start? Well, First off, I’m a survivor of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma since 2010 and now I’m Schizophrenic, depressed, and addicted to hurting myself. I’ve tried smoking and drinking but I can’t let out my feelings unless It is with a razor. I feel like God wanted me to die back then, so why am I still alive? Why would he keep me alive just for me to suffer more? He already put me in enough trauma to kill me anyways, but I just can’t man-up and do it. I just don’t want to be here. I’m sick of being the punching bag for everyone, even god.
