I always mess everything up. Tonight, my “friends” are going to a party where half of the town is going. I decided to stay home and told them it was because I didn’t want to. The truth is, when I start getting too close to someone it always ends bad.When I watch people around, it seems like I’m the only one constantly fighting with people. I’m tired, really tired. I always have thoughts like this and sometimes it just builds up and I cry myself to sleep while others are getting drunk. Sometimes I don’t know if people really like me or it’s just temporary. All I’m waiting for now is for the next time I hurt someone again, or when someone will hurt me. I’m only 17, and for the whole time I’ve been in school, I’ve never fully felt like myself, never had a stable friendship. Now I think I will stop getting too attached to people and just take everything as it comes and let it go if it wants to go. Why are all relationships so hard?
