When someone is nice to me or tells me something about myself the more and more I have a hard time believing it. Especially when it’s multiple people telling me the same thing or just one person repeating it. It makes me feel like I’m being lied to. It makes me doubt myself more. It makes me wonder if they’re being honest with me. Even when they are, I still just feel terrible about it. When someone tells me “youre cute when you did (thing)”, it makes me wanna do the thing less. I dont know why, but it just does. I guess it’s because I dont feel cute doing it, or I dont see myself as cute for doing it. It only happens with positive things too, like ‘oh you look nice when you do (thing)’ and i’ll do it less because I don’t feel like I do. I have a really hard time when I have to accept compliments and I feel horrible when people get mad at me for not accepting it, or saying ‘dont be so humble’ when im being honest when i say ‘thanks even if i dont feel that way’. I don’t get it one bit and it makes me a bit upset and makes me wanna stop doing things I like because of that. I don’t know what to do.
