• 6 years ago
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i am deeply in love with an nfl player (not saying who or which team.) we are both 21 & we met in october at a club & started drinking & dancing with each other. the last thing i remember from that night was laying in his lap in an uber.
then the next morning, i wake up naked under the covers of a bed that is not mine, & i turn to my side & no one is beside me in bed. i felt ashamed, i assumed this would be my first ever one night stand. i just put on my clothes & prayed he wasn’t outside his room because i was just going to leave.
but then i opened the door & hes sitting in his kitchen eating breakfast, & he jumps up & tells me he made me pancakes. i felt like i had to say yes. so i sat there & he tells me he made me my own special pancake because he can’t eat normal ones during game season. that’s when i immediately knew he was the one for me. i stayed the next 3 days at his apartment & we’re still talking to this day.
we havent made anything official & i am too scared to tell anyone i know about this because a) they wont believe me & b) they wont think its genuine. but it hurts my heart being away from him & all i do is hope that he will ask me to be his gf. we act like a couple & treat each other as we are one, but i just so badly want that final confirmation.
i am madly in love with him & i don’t know what to do. i know he is my person, as i have never felt this strongly for anyone, not even my ex who i dated for 2 years. i hate keeping this a secret & i just want to scream at the top of my lungs that i am in love. i don’t know what to do.

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