I am a gay born in a dysfunctional family and had a traumatic childhood. Although, things are quite stable from last three years. I am not fortunate enough to live in US or Canada, I live in an non accepting, orthodox and conservative place.
To distract myself from these thoughts, I turned towards education and I worked really hard and push myself to limits as a result I am a exceptional student in college. Sorry, I don’t mean to brag, I want to imply that I lost my human emotions, I don’t want to think me being gay because when I think I want to have a relationship, typically like any straight couple’s relation.
I know it is not possible in such stereotypical society, Moreover, I don’t want to be a pain or a source of shame for my parents.
I plan is to move outside my country when I will graduate then I will live a life that I wished my entire life? Oh, sounding so awesome!, but awesome things never happens to me and I know my plans will fall apart as they always do but I will try for sure so that I will not regret that I haven’t even tried.