everything
my liff is dull and empty and i cannot for the love of god be active in communities or socially this is very annoying and my coping mechanisms are shitty too well written angst fanfictions that don’t depict life at all but i still consider them my fucking standards
everything is complicated and even the most objective thing is subjective, everything is stupid and i can’t stick to one way of thinking and logic, i want to get better at having masks but they just come naturally when i feel that it’s logically good and slash or useful but it’s still annoying me i dont have 100% self control
also i fucking hate sjws (but i am full of love i still love every one of them even if theyre annoying as shit and basically leftist bigots)
fuck politics honestly
i want to talk to people and i mostly do it online but they get awkward with me irl so i just watch them and learn about them like this
my life is really fucking dull honestly it consists of basically nothing
i have no life except for my computer and memes and my computer is starting to bore me so that’s a very bad & dangerous thing considering i dont have much left outside of that. maybe ill fall into drinking or drugs or weird religions or both or christianism or
fuck
i have no dreams in life, that’s sad but chill
i love making characters that’s basically the only thing that won’t change about me, i like giving them depth be it from 2hours of thinking, a sudden illumination in the bus or a thing i saw
i think im inventing all those problems because my life is so empty and uneventful, i really dont know
when i cry i generally dont know why i do, its because of a lot of things and then i just break in the middle of what im doing right after the last string was pulled & i just cried because i realised i had no future or motivation for anything
i like philosophy and penguins and i hope you have a good day, don’t end up like me
