i don’t feel good at all. depression is s***, and sometimes it feels just f****** overwhelming my life. i’m excited to go on vacation, but a month seems like 3 years, and i can’t just rely on that fun time away from my house, which is becoming like a prison while my mind is just a f****** locked safe with nothing in it but s***. i feel constantly lethargic and i can’t even take living and working and keeping up with high school, even though the deterioration isn’t noticeable. and that’s what bothers me the most. no one will even notice what the f*** is wrong. and even if they do, i’ll probably be bashed for being a p****. everything just gets worse, i can’t do anything but cry until i feel like s***, and cry some more. dear god, i need a miracle to pick my pathetic a** up off the cold ground.
