I had to move because girls have to move. And in my country its a requirement. I love this man and i know he would do anything for me as well. I feel im using this sacrifice to get my advantage in a lot of things. Im also epileptic so he just keeps me at home. I feel so f****** useless and it eats at me all the time. He says it doesnt matter and all that matters is that he knows im safe. Well staying at home and having someone with me everytime i go out is another form of imprisonment. But ask me for a solution…. i dont have one either. Wait it out i guess. I also want everything done now. I guess not everything gets done in a day. Please lord remind me that life is one step at a time. Make me stop hurting. Make this anxiety and guilt stop. Make this guilt stop. What guilt you say? Im useless!
