it’s taken me a long time to address this but i’m straight and i think i might be transgender. ever since i began puberty i’ve hated my body, and six years since it’s only gotten worse. i hate hearing my own name and being called my parents’ daughter. i’ve come to despise the female gender as a whole. it’s almost midnight and i’m currently crying. i honestly haven’t broken down like this for a few weeks. all my psychiatrists are f****** oblivious wastes of taxes. i hate talking to people and being in public and i f****** disgust myself. i’m not one to act melodramatic but i can’t remember the last time i genuinely felt happy. the only thing stopping me from killing myself is the unbearable guilt of leaving my mother behind with no other children or family to speak of, and my best friend who has been suicidal in recent years. sorry if anyone reads this i guess.
