He and I get into fights a lot, he’s given me a concussion and I cut him, today he slapped me and basically assaulted me. I want to hurt him, I want him to respect me, but he doesn’t. I hate myself for staying with him . He and I don’t mix but I don’t love myself enough to leave. No one knows what happens, on my side, he always tells. I’m losing myself and it’s my fault. I’m not sad I want him to feel my pain, which scares me.
