I feel numb. I have been through so much pain, loss, love. My life is very calm right now which is all I ever wanted. But there is the numbness like I’ll never feel again. I will never find a love as epic as I had. I will never feel anything worse than watching my child slowly die. I have been to the top. I have hit bottom. And now I cannot evoke a feeling about anything. Everything seems so trivial. I find it hard to even function through the day. I lie and wait and watch the world spin around me with no care for anything.
