I am angry i been fuked over alot by people close to me it has made me mental i m********* thinking about the ones who fucked me over even thinking about my same s** trifiling so called friends but i do this because of anger. I am not gay i wouldn’t ever do it for real. I hate being backstabbed . i am hurting inside. Cause i wouldn’t do it to them. But it could be all on my deranged mind i judge people all rhe time it is apart of my disability i hate the way i feel sometimes. I caint have a. Stable relationship without being jealous i hate it. God have mercy on me i pray . i want a straight relationship in love and trust and communication good always . i curse people behind thier back some deserve it some dont i have so many Mental issues i destroyed so many relationships thinking i was the one being fucked over maybe i was maybe i wasnt im just sad about it all. I pray God would forgive me and help me and grant me Grace to find true love in human form and love from all sides of life. I am desperate for sincerity. Not just s** but love too. I pray i can learn to change whatever im doing wrong..i want to be a better everything. I am a good friend but i wanna be a better mom .i pray i can turn around.i need love and Grace from above. Jesus take the wheel.
