I want to kill myself
but to be straight,
I just to disappear…
I don’t want to exist in this world anymore.
I never enjoy self harm in the first place.
First of all, it hurt.
The risk of getting infection from the cuts is a hassle to deal
but if I don’t treats it, it will be troublesome afterwards and waste more time.
I don’t wanna go through the dying process even though everyone
will go through at the end.
I just want leave.
I don’t deserve happiness, any love, or all of the wonder from this world.
I’m a waste of the society.
Getting help from the hospital only gonna waste my parents or my own money and time.
Same goes for asking help from friend or significant other.
I’m only going to waste their time and energy.
Better of they never knew about my depression that starting to get out of my hand.
Don’t you dare lecture me about religion or how I should feel guilty about this or about me going straight to hell.
If He loves me, why he approve of my existence in the first place if the end I’m just going to suffer in hell?
I wish none of us human never existed in the first place.
No heaven
No Hell
Just neutral
Weather I kill myself or not, I’ll still be punish to the damnation anyway.
I’m useless.
I’m a waste of space
I’m a waste of time
Nobody truely loves me.
They either your acquantances/friends with benefits, or family member with sense of morality and follows the law and so that’s why they never kicked me out.
I’m tired.
Let me sleep.
