I am in a long distance relationship for more than 5 years. My boyfriend is the best person I have ever met so far, he is so in love with me, he made himself a successful banker just so that he can I ask my family for us to get married, even he is being patient and supportive for me to make my career as a design engineer, he never doubts and is always considerate of my feeling, in simple words he is everything a girl can ask for, but I am going through a very difficult phase in my life relating to my career, and most of the time I am at home and thats eating me out. This stress is getting over my nerves and now a days I am not even feeling attracted towards him, I am feeling like I am falling out of love, I find ways to avoid talking to him, and since we are in a long distance relationship we cannot meet much. I feel like the excitment of our relationship is gone. I am afraid of commitment as well, I don’t know if will ever want to get married, but since he loves me so much he doesn’t loose hope, he thinks one day I will over come my anxiety for commitment, my family wants me to marry him as well, and even nowadays he even avoids talking about marriage because it stresses me, but avoiding this topic is not the solution.I don’t wanna hurt him neither I wanna lose him as my friend, but I am finding it hard to live in this relationship, I feel like what I have for him is completely platonic, but he has been with me through thick and thin and he loves me so much that I really don’t wanna hurt him. I am assuming this to be a phase but I am scared once I get out of the problems regarding my career will I still feel the same way, will I ever be able to love him again, it breaks my heart too coz he is my childhood love and my best friend.
