My bf and i are both come from a religious family. We are not allowed to touch each other unless we have a connection like he is my brother or he is my husband whatsoever. Long story short,we both are muslim. Sooo,last few days was my bf’s birthday. He asked me where was his present so I jokingly said i wanted to give him a kiss as his present. But he took it seriously:))) but Frankly speaking,i wanted to try how does it feels to be kissed and to kiss someone. Then he asked me to go out,i ask him where we were going and he said to his house. I was like tf boy i thot we were goin to eat. No one was at his house,his family was away for few days that is why he asked me to go to his house. Silly me i agreed to do so. So i went to his house.
We were sitting on the couch in from of the tv. Few minutes later he lay down on my laps. That didn’t surprise me bc i thougjt it was normal and cute,and i played with his hair and s***. He kept changing his position and i knew he wanted more. Then he sit on my laps,my legs were like between his legs. I dont think u guys understand but his face was so close to my face. He asked me to hug him so i did,i dont know how to put all this in words but while i hugged him,he was kissing my neck and i love it. Slowly i get sleepy,it was so comfy. Im that kind of person that will feel sleepy when the room is comfy and cozy. So while he was kissing my neck,i told him i was sleepy. So he asked me to sleep in his bedroom and we both went to his room. And i lay down on his bed with him hugging my body. Our body was so close like ive never ever thought id be on the same bed with a boy.
While i was trying to sleep,he kept hugging me tightly and he kept kissing my cheeks. I couldn’t sleep bc of that!!!!!! But still,when i was in his arms,i closed my eyes while he stroke my hair. And few minutes later i can ffeeel his breath,at that moment i knew he was going to kiss me so i was like trying to hide my face but i get tired so i let him kiss me. And i didnt like it bc i can feel his saliva so he was like “try to kiss me back,ull love it” and i did. And i didnt like it:)))))
But he cannot stop kissing me. He was on top of me. While doing all tjose s*** he said his p**** was hard but I pretended i didnt hear him bc i didnt know what to response. and then he was like grinding on me and i can feel his p**** ??? and i get h****. He kept kissing my neck and lips and grimdimg on me. And i love it but we didn’t cross the line. We did not have s**.
thats it. I just wanted someone to read this bc nobody around me knows this except for him and me. Now i feel relieved that i confessed it,i dont feel burden anymore. Pardon my grammar,i just want to feel okay.
