I sometimes spend time online looking at p***. One day I ran into a s****** site, and much to my surprise, I got really turned on. Don’t get me wrong, guys don’t do it for me, but when you see the female form with male g*******, it just looks intoxicating.

I decided to do something about it, since you only live once. I answered several craigslist ads, and met up with two “gurls”. One was a dud, and I had zero interest. The second one was very attractive, she (yes, she) was on hormones for several years, and you couldn’t tell her apart from any other woman, though her a** was on the small side. After the second date, she invited me to her place. I wasn’t really sure how I was going to handle it, but the attraction was there. She was a wonderful kisser, and she went down on me for oral. It was the best oral in my life! But it was my turn, and I confessed that this was my first time. She was patient and nice. I fumbled around, disrobed her, and saw a rather “pretty” small p****. She kept it nice and hairless, and it was small because of the years of hormones. She also mentioned that the hormones take a toll, that it was difficult for her to sustain an erection. Boy was she wrong! I went down on her, and it hardened nicely. After awhile, I could taste her precum, it had a very pleasant taste, she tasted better than going down on a woman. I practiced with her, even with her smallness it was challenging to d**********, but I succeeded. Things were going great, and then I noticed her balls moving, and she stiffened even further. I knew what that meant, but I was hooked. She came hard, and I lovingly swallowed. We slept together and cuddled. In the morning, she got up and cleaned herself up a bit, and aroused me. She lubed herself, and wanted me to make her my woman. We had a*** i**********, and frankly it felt like i********** with a woman, same sensations.

I thought about it later the next day, and I smiled and called myself a cocksucker. I was hooked though. I asked her to be my girlfriend, and we dated for over two years. She was amazingly loyal, but she wanted to marry and adopt kids together. That presented a problem, as I wasn’t ready for marriage, and wanted my own genetic kids. It was a dealbreaker.

I regret it. We should have found a surrogate or adopted. I still love her. I’ve dated genetic women and TS women since, but none of them are her equal.

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