I’m in a wonderful relationship, but I can’t stop fantasizing about some people and getting really emotionally involved by these fantasies. An internet friend, a real life friend for a while, my Italian literature teacher… all people that do or have mentally attracted me. It’s pleasing… like, a lot… but it also makes me feel guilty, and most of all, it makes me wonder what it means. Because I’m absolutely sure I love my boyfriend, but if I could spend one night in a parallel universe where anything that happens has no consequences in my surroundings, I wouldn’t choose him to come with me and would think of bringing one of those people as the realisation of one of my deepest dreams. Seriously, what does it mean?
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